Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 13/240 Days Longest streaks 67 and 51 days Current Challenge 8/90 Day 75 weight training Day 8 reduced alcohol, caffeine and deserts - often wondered why I could relate to the down and out, broken addictive people I meet and now I know, I am one of them - most of my life I never thought enjoying your body's natural O function could be addictive - now I know better, especially given the superstimulous of Internet porn - the good side of Internet and the information age is I can be informed about porn addiction and how to end it - your brother in this struggle
Started Challenges August 21, 2019 Longest streak 147 days Current Challenge 32/90 no PMO It's was quite difficult today. I've got the impression I won't make it. I'll never completely quit. I try not to focus on that feeling but it sucks... Habit made: -cold shower -pray my chaplet -wake up early Habits to make: -schedule the day -sports
I failed on the 1st of September. But got back on the horse after bindging for about a week straight. My issue was that I had tapes of my ex and thought it wouldn't harm me. It did, like hell. Guess what? She ended up calling me the following week, very strange. Anyway, I thought it was unfair to hold such possessions so decided to delete everything once and for good. Been a good 10 days so far, I got looks from some girls and felt my confidence boost in the first 7 days. Today went out with some friends and felt so damn awkward like my superpowers just vanished. Like I was not myself as hard as I tried. I felt out of my skin, definitely not a great feeling. Hopefully that it's only temporary. TL;DR Felt good for a week, then today got massively awkward. Does it get better?
Day 7/90 Checking in. This is the time around which I have to relapse when compared to last few weeks. I challenge "YOU" Urge to come and get me as it is time like every before streak.
64/90 My holidays are coming to an end. I should be able to post every day now. More than 60 days is a new territory for me. I'm loving it. When urges come I say to myself I want to keep that number up. But I know it's more than that. I'm grateful for this community.
Wow today I started to use dating apps before I started to realize. Anyways lucky that I didn't go as far as nude. I stopped myself while binging on completly clothed. Day 7/90 good.