Add 18 years to your age plus 4 more years of PMO (at age 14 started with magazines) and that is where I am at ... really sucks doesn't it when you think of all that lost time - about 15,000 hours in my case! I totally relate to your comment of being in a trance where you loose track of time and everything around you. That really shows the control and addictiveness this bad habit has over us. We can do this, bro! Let's rise to greatness together!
Man that was hard As someone shouting at ur face GO SAVE REST OF UR MISERABLE FKN LIFE. U SPENT HALF OF IT FAPPIN& THE REST TREATING PIED WHAT A MISERY I"LL WITHSTAND WHATEVER IT TAKES THIS TIME I SWEAR WILL BE DIFFERENT
Day 32 of 90. Have been in hospital most of past month which made it very easy, in fact no temptations whatsoever.
4 days no PMO. Lost count of all the other stuff. I am back on Facebook posting. It is different this time. I am not craving the little red notification dot. Just sharing fun things. Feeling great with this 4 days. Confidence is almost back to what it was at my 11 day streak. Had 4 or 5 falls over a few days butgot back on track. Did not lose all the benefits and Iam almost back to where Iwas at 11 days. Had a very hard battle yesterday morning when I got off work. I wanted to act out so badly. I wanted the benefits of nofap more than acting out. In the midst of it all I remembered how I felt at my 11 days. Remembered how girls started showing signs of being attracted to me. I don't want that superficial PMO anymore. I can't use porn as a loving mother anymore. That is Mother Marys job now. Have not been posting on here. Was just getting adjusted to life here in Fort McMurray. New job. Living in camp. I am finally getting into the flow of things up here. I like being in camp for work. You really make good friends. It is better this time too. I am connecting with people more than ever. It feels really good to be part of something. Got a job with the union. That feels great. Gives me a sense or belonging. I used to feel ashamed of those feelings. Like most of the other ones I guess. I am not going to get my computer back until I have 90 days sobriety. I will never get over PMO if I have it hooked up to the internet
One of the hardest thing you can do in this life is fighting yourself and stopping M. but I will do it this time. On route...
Day 15 One day at a time and one urge at a time. All the best guys! Have a great day ahead Wash out all bad thoughts from your mind and be happy.