7 days no PMO 2 days less sugar. 7 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 59 days no posts on Facebook. Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy. Prayed my litanies. Daily consecration Czestochowa prayer card Talks with God and Mary. 1 week down. Praise God. I can't thank Him enough for this beautiful gift. I am starting to feel really amazing. I have drive. Things taste better. I am more comfortable around people. Thank you God.
Well, I had a terrible weekend, did the full PMO suite, and spent too much time moping in my own pity party. It's time to get serious again. Day 1 without an incident.
I relapsed, this was my longest streak of 19 days, the urges got better of me And now i feel relaxed, it made me realise i was running from problems of my life Whenever i had some mental pressure or tension i just fapped, it had become a habit, i need to break out of this habit Another thing i am afraid of is binge watching porn in upcoming 2,3 days I will have to start again for my self, my dreams and for people that are important to me I also realised daily updating your status on this site helps a lot, even though you guys hardly reply to any of my questions but still i feel a resistance to fap after writing here daily and knowing that i am not alone in this journey Back to day 0 now, hope i do not masturbate again in near future, these 3-4 days i am vulnerable...
Too many false starts. What happened to that serious voice in my head that made me sign up for the 90 in the first place?! Not taking this seriously enough, sorry boys. Was just considering giving up giving up! But have just enough sanity left to realise that is leading nowhere. Keep chipping away! The really stupid things about PMO. You sit there jerking off to a smoking hot girl who you are never going to get, ironically, especially not if you sit there repeatedly jerking off! Sorry, that thought just occurred to me in the aftermath. What a shit way to waste time and self sabotage!