Relapsed after almost 90 days. I did not watch porn but was on audio porn, which is the same I believe. I will try to build it up again. During these days I noticed that I used to get urges every now and then. I used to go incognito on my phone, type the names and leave it after having a couple of glimpses. There was something inside me which did not want to look at those things and some things which wanted. I fought hard, did not masturbate. Relapsed today, although there was a difference. I was determined to do it today, but did not edge. Secondly, I feel less guilt as I tried very hard in these days. I hope that I do not look at those images ever again. I promise each one of you wonderful people that I will get over this undesirable tendency of mine. Because it is a mockery of my self-discipline. I dont want to be weak. I wish to be able to be balanced in any situation I face in my life, and not resort to anything which resembles sexual release. I will face it head-on and try to rise above it. Peace yo'all!
2 weeks done!! Very proud of myself! Two of the days last week I didn't go to work and was resting at home due to flu! Usually days like this mean lot of porn and fapping! Managed to overcome those urges and managed to do things more productive. Even though I have stayed away from porn last two weeks I still find my self spending considerable time on insta. I really want to cut down on that too!!
I relapsed on Friday night and haven't been able to post since, but right now I'm on day 1 approaching day 2, and I feel like this will finally be the time I overcome this. I need to free myself from this addiction