Dopamine release

Hi Jesse. The release, for an addict, is almost instantaneous, which is why it is addictive. Uh, I don't know how direct you wish me to be, but, for the addict in recovery it is very important to avoid sites where porn "just pops up." I know those sites are here and there, but in the real world, in reality, there are really very few sites where porn "just pops up." Actually, you don't just casually stumble upon them, you have to go looking for them. If you are hitting those sites you are hitting them because porn just pops up. It take less than a second for a dopamine high, for an addict. I don't call it relapse, I call it a learning experience. We don't like to give up the dopamine high. So...we talk ourselves into getting it while telling ourselves a moment cannot hurt, or it is accidental, or I did not see that coming, or whoops, how unexpected. But in truth, we expected it. That is called peeking. In reality, if you are looking at the local news, wikipediing, yahooing, googleing, reading Tolstoy, Dostoyoevsky, God forbit Checkov, or the Twilight Series, tits and ass just does not just pop up. (Oh how I wish it did--wait! Moment of levity, humor, self depreciation--even addicts, especially addicts, need some humor in the recovery). Yes, some tempting things are going to be out there, but it is not just popping up. If Twitter is your trigger, you need to get rid of it. I am not saying forever, but at least for the hard 90. You need to get clean first, then explore who you are sexually and what you are willing to expose yourself to.

I am saying this to everyone reading this. You have to get clean before you can ask who you are because until you get clean you will never know who you are.

Billy the Kid.

 

I'm in the same boat. Really like Twitter, but it's just so easy for me to "accidentally" stumble into bikini pics and what not. Even the accidental searching would give me a dopamine hit. Twitter is probably one of the worst social media apps IMO as far as how easy it is to stumble upon soft core junk. I had to delete it myself...even though I hated too because again, Twitter is my fave.