Inner struggle is where we can learn about ourselves, it's where our real insecurities and weaknesses show themselves for us to see. When I have a bad day with it I am actually scared of feeling so vulnerable, like a lamb to the slaughter. It's only in resisting and overcoming that I feel strength and self reliance, and it increases the more time I do it for. And there for me is what I feel excitement about, if I feel like this after two weeks then how will I feel in a month? Six months, a year? When I have tried before, just with no porn but still doing m and o I got to one month. I felt really good, but I think there's a part of me that is scared of being that strong self assured person, who's confident in themselves and their abilities. Of being seen in the world, and this kind of hijacking of myself by some part of me that I have felt before is also something that I know I will be up against in the coming weeks. It tries to keep me down because that's where I've kind of been my whole life, scared to raise my head. But fuck that I'm gonna kick this addiction in the balls and be my own man, knowing that nothing can divert me from what I want to do.
You have spent the last half an hour bragging about how many times you keep relapsing in different threads. Why? Do you put half an hour of effort in improving your strategy of resisting temptation and removing strategies that are not working?
2 days no pmo 71 days in nofap forum. 1 7 day streak and 2 8 day streaks since I started here. 2 days exercise. Probiotics 40 days. Rosary 1 day. Practiced singing yesterday. No. Studying music theory yesterday. No. I struggle with remembering to do things like practicing my singing and studying music. Hopefully posting about it every day here will help.
Day 30/90 check in. No pmo. Glad that I've made it a month. I hope to continue this way. All the best brothers
Challenge start: 25.05.2019 Longest streak:26 days New start of no PMO: day 3 Cold shower:34 days Running: day 3 Daily prays : day 3 Daily reading: day 2
Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 163/167 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150,) Day 65/90 meeting my goals in challenge Day 167 no alcohol or caffeine Day 43 of weight training - still have a dull ache in my left nut and am wondering if it is related to not PMO'ing anymore or if it could be a result of looking at Psubs the other day, feeling aroused but not masturbating/ejaculating or if it is a side effect of Flomax (BPH meds for enlarged prostate) - any doctors out there? - am still having sex with the wife about once or twice a week though and the plumbing is working okay - also feeling low energy for the past few days and the wife just got a cold so I might have a bug too - feeling strong resolve still to avoid PMO and live a clean life from now on - we got this fellas!