You're welcome. I needed to voice what I've been feeling. I am glad that it is benefitting others. Stay strong.
117/365. I will continue to work on my sleep hygiene. I feel that I am not on extreme danger, but it is high danger. I need to regularly post, and remind myself daily why I hate pornography, of my goals, and how pornography only takes, and causes nothing but extreme loss and sorrow. I also need to be more understanding and forgiving of my own self. (Not to the point where it worsens my condition, but I cannot be so harsh on myself that I get emotional.) If I need time to get things in my life done, I should respect that, and know what I have going on life, and give myself some leeway rather than feeling guilty and having an emotional response. There are time to be hard and myself and times to be easygoing. I need to learn some self compassion.
Today is a super special day, which is 100 days. I'm so proud of myself. Yet, if I hadn't been encouraged by everyone in this group, I wouldn't have got over 100 days. So, I'm so grateful to everyone for giving me lots of motivations. Furthermore, I'm currently living alone, you know, I never think about PMO anymore. I'm always positive attitude at work and try to learn new language (English). I feel so fabulous everyday. Love you all. Have an awesome day.
Day 2/365 It's been nearly 6 months of no contact between my toxic ex-girlfriend, and I but thoughts & dreams of missing her, and reaching out to her have been increasing lately.. And I'm not entirely sure why. I've no intentions of betraying my rational mind and acting on these thoughts & feelings, due to what she put me through, but none the less the feelings are difficult to process.. and arduous to understand why they're here. Is it an indication that maybe I'm moving out of the anger stage of the abuse cycle, and I'm finally forgiving her internally? In any case, despite the feelings, I'm in good spirits. I assume much of what I'm feeling is related to my brain rewiring to its original format. I hope everyone has a great day today. Stay strong, brothers.
After joining this forum last year my pmo habit has definitely improved and last time I made a 58 days streak which is absolutely insane for me coz I never thought that I would ever be able to puase this habit for so long I think all the credit goes to all the beautiful peoples in this forum who helped, encouraged,inspired whenever I needed them most So yeah as I said last time I am starting over again So Day 0