On my first attempt, 23rd day in and first day i havnt been able to really fill it with activities. Laying on the couch watching a movie and the thought of my last sexual encounter popped in, ive been good at blocking all sexual thought buy i started to indulge this one. Got to the point where my dick went hard and i thrusted onto the couch, my alert blasted on and i stopped myself immediately but then realised i felt slightly relaxed, then drained like i would feel after pmo. Thought about sex just for a second to test and yup, not much desire there like if i had pmo'd. FU**! I thought...right before i passed out. Just woke up and feeling brainfog back, and i dont know if its just anger at this or not but possible anxiety. Did i really just relapse in 10 seconds witgout any porn or orgasm?!?!? Have i reset!?!?
I agree with @llortaton .. you didn’t relapse. In fact, you caught yourself before doing so.. at least that’s what it sounds like to me. I think you can call this one a victory. You overcame an urge. Stopped yourself before letting your old habits win.
Im not so sure, i felt an obvious dopamine comedown after i caught myself. Has this happened to you? I sort of feel like your saying this so i dont get discouraged. But i really feel like this reaet something
That is your brain, reacting to the urges. Its normal, its part of the healing process. When drug addicts abstain for a month, and then they crave and urge, they feel like shit afterwards, because that's their dopamine receptors signaling the brain, and craving. Trust me brother, I know psychology. This bad feeling doesn't last too long. Have a good day! I hope you live the most prosperous life there is!!!!
