Hmmmm.... Day 1/30 after the 14 day challenge. Counter currently at 17, but I guess it's because I am writting this past midnight.
Day 4 I have been tired and somewhat inexplicably sad recently. I suspect its partly burnout from the semester and I'm still recovering, but I feel like it might also be my body and brain recovering from porn use, like it doesn't know how to handle the lack of pornographic sexual stimuli -- it's a good lack, but it's a transition. Stay strong everyone!
The very act of counting days and the thought that I just need to hold up for an x amount of days then finally I will be free IS what keeps us stuck, we're stuck hoping to overcome it in the future, so we're left living in the future and the hope gives a feeling of security that even if we relapse today we will make it eventually, someday in the future, and so you find people struggling with the habit for years. We cant do anything in the future, when we truly realize that life is but RIGHT NOW and that future is a projection of our thoughts then we realize that we only have the power to overcome this habit RIGHT NOW, easier said than done obviously but thats what keeps us really focused and thus we know that we have to bite the bullet right now to make an absolute decisive decision that we will never watch porn, it will just not be an option for our life, and that is a hard decision to make because subconsciously we love that shit and we dont wanna let go of it, let it go, forever.