Day 2. Feeling like crap but no urges. My biggest obstacle is when I feel bored or emotionally numb and I just slide into zombie mode forgetting about everything and just chasing some titillation of my senses with a subtle a voice in my head that goes like "it'll be okay, you wont relapse, just check out this picture, u got this"
Day 0... no one to blame but myself. I asked myself last night, how do i want to wake up. Vibrant and joyful or feeling lije crap. I chose the latter.