I am currently a 21 year-old college student. Was homeschooled growing up and sex-ed was minimal, so I discovered masturbation on my own when I was around 12 years old. While I didn't start using porn until I went to college, I have been addicted to masturbation since I started high school. At this point, I'm tired. Tired of the guilt I feel afterwards, tired of the back of my mind telling me I know better as I'm doing it, tired of not having healthy romantic relationships because I'm too obsessed with looking at images of some girl I've never met to focus on the girl I've been crushing on for two years when I finally have a shot with her. I've been off-and-on trying to reboot for quite some time. Most successfully a few months ago when my roommate seriously started rebooting. I didn't take it as seriously as him though, and the results have shown in how well his reboot has gone while mine consistently fell off a week in. My goal is to complete 90-day hardmode. I'm choosing this because I know my brain just needs to be reset from the mess it has become as a result of my actions, and I don't trust myself to experience related effects until I have it under control.
Welcome! So, what's the plan after those 90 days hard mode? And how will you approach this this time around in order to be successful?
To be honest I haven't thought that far ahead yet. As far as how I'll approach it this time, I plan to start leaning more on resources such as this website in addition to using my friend as an accountability partner. I believe that by keeping a better journal this time, I'll have a better tool to go back and remember why I'm doing what I am when it comes time to fight urges.
