Didn't even get urges and relapsed. Did terrible on a math test and I was like people who are depressed relapse. And so I was a freaking idiot.
Day 14... My second week... Today, I found a picture in social Media, and urges appears, I was fighting and I was able to get out clean of this tentation...what a relief...
"What lies ahead of you, and what lies behind you, are tiny matters compared to what lies within you." - Ralph Waldo Emmerson.
Day 1/90. Mood is great. Positive outlook on life and started smiling more with no particular reason.
Even though as number of days is progressing goal is getting nearer but kind of excitement is gone which was at day 0,1,2....it look like I'm going to fail myself once again...cant even find interest in mentioning but still its day 52/90
Yeah, it actually goes like this. At the first days you are superexcited and then the excitement is just decreasing. You need to motivate yourself somehow (read about it, watch videos etc.). If you would go to gym until you get the first pains in your arm, and then you would stop, you wouldn't develope right? You need to go through this period when you're without excitement. If you will leave this challenge, you will be sorry, because one day you'll need to leave this addiction if you want to grow. Please don't give up my friend
Today is day 90 - wow!! How the hell did I get here?! I’ve been so down in the dumps for so long. Today I woke up feeling good. The rumination over the past has been a lot less over the past 24 hours. I just did 20 minutes of mindfulness to start the day. I hope this is sign of good things to come. I feel good.
Last 15 days had been unproductive but I will again try to stick to my time table to get my life on track...even i also i cant afford 52 days of efforts...just searching a way to keep motivating me...
