16 my friends today i read a quote from a gambling disorder specialist. he wrote about why ex-patological gamblers could never come back to money games. this naturally aplies to PMO addiction. "We talk about treatment and not cure because there´s a lot more data at neurobiological and genetic level that stated that dependency is a cronic problem, but not terminal. This means through treatment it´s possible to conquer life quality built on abstinence. (...) My 15 years experience dealing with dependency disorders makes me afirm that whoever had severe dependency can not attain the desired control to consume. Generally, it´s only a matter of time until the obsession, the compulsion and the impulsiveness return. These are the factors that lead to loss of control and priorities switching that caracterize this behavioural dependency, among others"
Day 25/90. Today was a close one. I was researching about a creature of near eastern mythology, which soon devolved into looking at psubs, but I was saved by a friend who came by, so I didn't continue down the rabbit hole.
Day 33: Wow, it's already day 33. Every time I have small urge to relapse, I will search youtube for a NoFap video. And turns out watching NoFap video and listening to real people sharing their success story will give me a lot of courage to not giving up!