Definitely I need to detox myself. Shed the skin. Make a new life. Life with dream and ambition. Stay busy and more organized. Plan for the future. Emotion is the enemy for having a successful life. When I need to do something, do it. Never listen to emotion. It is boring. I am not motivated. Shut up and do it.
Day 11/90. I finally had good dreams last night about a girl. Nothing creepy or overtly sexual. When I want to know if something is good for me I ask myself two questions. Where will it take me? Where will it leave me after? I actually write the questions and answers down on paper. This helps me be more honest with myself.
Day 11/90 Doing good so far. Had a busy day, so had no issues with my mind wandering off. Here's to busy days!
Thank you for your support. I see you a couple of days longer without PMO. Congrats! What are your goals? Yes, my goal is to be fully semen retention. No more orgasms or ejaculation.
That’s awesome and thanks! Well, when I first found this website I just wanted to stop compulsively watching porn. But now that I’ve been actually doing this for a little while I decided I want to try semen retention and see what happens. I’ve learned a lot about myself because of coming here and how I’d been living for so long just seems insane now. I’m meditating and exercising to transmute my sexual energy. I haven’t had any wet dream close calls yet but it’s still early.
Day 0 again Spend 2 hours worth watching Boredom man For now I don't study nor working so I am easily vulnerable. Also I have too many problems that porn is like an escape from anxiety. 4 years and can't really fight back this addiction.
Even though I have to reset my 7 days streak after losing to my lower self on Sunday, I stand up strong like ever before. I kept 9 days cleans out of 10. Streak is important. I like to win and I have to win. Life is a marathon not a sprint. Streak is good but number of day clean is great. The benefits of giving up PMO is extraordinary. I though PMO is normal, but it destroys my personality. I have started to be back on track. I stayed more focus and I do what I said that I am going to do. I have more energy during the day. No PMO taught me so much about will power. It is a little bit more easy for me to say no to the things that I dont like now. Hopefully, I will be more be able to say no and not fall into any temptation that I fall into before. I will keep update through it in the future. No PMO is the way to live a life to its fullness.