Day 72/90. This week has had its fair share of its ups and downs. I persevered. I've have had my rough edges and smooth glidings. There are many things I won't be able to fully control. However, working hard isn't one of them. It takes a clear mind to deal with difficult situations. It's easy to get frustrated and lose sight of what is to be.
Guys I'm not sure what happened, it would not let me sleep so I got up and well I think I relapsed I kept trying to tell myself that the urge would pass soon but it just would not let me sleep I thought maybe I had to pee but nothing was coming out, I have to wake up in the morning and I didnt know what to do Not exactly proud of myself here, feeling a lot of anxiety right now, I need to stop listening to that part of my brain that tells me that this shit is ok Starting over right now, this time I really have to control myself Day 0/90
Day 81. Today I will remember the impact porn have on actresses and actors performing in such films (whose average life, usually full of sufferning and diseases is 36 years - according to Pink Cross Foundation):
Don't be hard on yourself. You lasted for two months. I can dream about that with my highest streak of 22 days. And don't look at it as a relapse. Your brain has recovered so much in the last two months. Now you need to do your best not to lose that progress. Go for another 2 months. And that will make you a guy with one relapse in the last 120 days... How awesome is that?! And you are not alone. We are here for you!
Sorry this happened brother. That scenario was brutal and we all understand! Thanks for being honest with the group about it. I hope you beat that streak next time around! Supporting you.
Day 20 My body has been “buzzing” for a few days. Just feels like a motor in my gut. I’d really like to get a handle on what’s going on before I relapse. I want to gain a new level of freedom. I must learn to live life without demanding sexual gratification at a moments notice.
Day 70 Check in ! I just released my first album today, totally motivated by this Nofap journey ! https://charlescote36.bandcamp.com/album/d-tricot