This is my third date now. Hey crush!!! I promise you that I will be competent man. I will focus on studying how to trade stock market. I promise you that less PMO and more time on learning about stock market. Dear my 5 year self, I promise you that I will not make you disappointed.
Days without Porn: 7 / 90 Days without Masturbation: 3 / 90 Days without Orgasm: 0 / 45 Days without Sexting: 3 / 90 Days without chasing Women: 3 / 90 Heres what I have so far.
I almost get a relapse. I saw a naked lady in an oil painting but she covered where she needs to cover. I almost have a relapse. I did a good job to back it out and stop the excuse to PMO. I remind myself why I am on this journey. I am doing it to get myself closer to my goal- a competent man. Next time I will never read Quora again. It is a good website but so many triggers.
Almost the end of the day. The urge is at the peak. I know I can do it. Remember life is short. I dont know when disaster is going to hit. Dont waste my time on PMO. Get all your effort and time to get ready for that disaster. It is going to happen to everyone. You just dont know when. You gotta get ready for it.
Day 9/90. Lately, when I find myself having unwanted sexual thoughts or thinking about PMO I immediately start a simple breathing exercise. As I’m breathing in deeply and slowly through my nose I imagine that I’m pulling energy up from my sexual center into my mind. Then as I breathe out slowly through my mouth I imagine that I’m placing that same energy into my heart. I do this in a calm, kind and nonjudgmental way. As I’m doing this I believe that I’m transforming overwhelming feelings of lust into a wholesome and manageable power source that I can use for anything I want to do in my life. The post that I read this on said it was called the ‘Ham Sah’ mantra. When you breathe in you’re supposed to say HAAAMM like in your mind only. And then when you breathe out you say SAAAHH in your mind. The way I remember it is that it almost sounds like ‘ham sandwich’ haha. Apparently it’s from the Sanskrit language and my interpretation of the meaning is ‘I am not my thoughts’. I’m choosing now to do something good with my life instead of wasting so much time and energy on PMO the way I used to. This exercise helps me to do that. That’s all I’ve got today! Take it easy guys!
Day 0, again! I'm going to just stick with this thread instead of one of the other ones. I need a nice long one to go for. I was doing fine, then I tried to have sex and was stopped by PEID. This cause me to slip into depression and soon I was back to looking at porn, and it's been progressing to harder and harder stuff (like it used to). This is seriously going to ruin my life! I can't take this anymore. So I'm going to try again. I started dating this woman, but I'm not sure if I should break things off with her because I really don't want to even try to have sex again. I'm sure I could do it because I got some generic ED meds (the word is banned here for some reason) from my doctor, but I feel like a failure. I shouldn't have to use that at my age
Day 9/90 I keep telling myself this is not just a 90 day thing. It's a lifestyle change. I want to be here for the long haul.
Just checking in here cos I’m a bit tempted. At home on my own, was watching football but it’s over now. Got some good work done on my laptop but was edging a bit after so I immediately thought of this forum and the fact that I’m in this 90 day challenge still with lots of other guys. I don’t wanna fuck up the good work I’ve put in over the last 12 days or so. This is a good platform for a long clean streak and I intend to keep it that way..
Bingewatch 2 hours last night after a good day. I think because of sleepiness and my own fault to watch porn. Just Woke up from 5 hours of sleep. As a christian I feel ashamed to do it on sunday ; I didn't even ask for forgiveness. Forgiveness must be follow by change but my past still repeating itself. Any tips will help . Day 0