8/365 I thought it come at day 9-13. I am already struggling yesterday and today again. I have quite an urge for arousal and yes I realize it’s true arousal addiction. That’s totally me...that’s what all the thoughts and ideas are. And my mind is super creative in this because I am creative in general....
Tenth day without pmo. I am doing a list updating every day about why I don't want pmo: day 1) I want to recover passion in my life; day 2) I want harmony with other people; day 3) I want to listen to my emotions; day 4) I want to recover self esteem; day 5) I want to love myself; day 6) I want to appreciate the little things of life; day 7) I want to appreciate quotidianty; day 8) I want to live my pulses; day 9) I want to enjoy also bad moments; day 10) I want to feel energic, alive, very strong.
I've been struggling this week too, and it is day 200 of noPMO. We just have to hold our ground. It seems to get worse when other parts of life are in upheaval. Things will settle out soon and it will be easier again.
Quick check in before putting my daughter to bed. Another day lived well, or at least the best I could and light years better than before.
One of my favorite and important post would be this: I myself wrote it Down and use it in my daily basis. Empowering questions: 1_what is happening right now? Or what's been going around me? 2_what could be good about this? 3_What would happen if...(you reach your desired state of physical or financial or educational condition)?
Another day in. I think now I have established a solid foundation to try a 'hell week' of my own. Having been inspired by David Goggins, Jocko Willink and the book entitled Hell Week, I need to live in a state of austere discomfort for 7 days starting tomorrow. This will help me to see that hardship fosters growth. Freedom has a heavy cost and in order to attain it, my mind needs to be calloused towards discomfort and pain. My 'Hell Week' will include: - Waking up @ 4:30 am - 1000 push-ups, 1000 ab exercises especially crunches, 500 squats, 200 pullups done accumulatively throughout the seven days - Running 20k accumulatively throughout the 7 days - Facing some of my worst fears e.g. snakes by going to the snake park and seeing them live; talking to attractive women; - Coding for a minimum of 3 hours a day - Absolutely no YouTube, no FB or whatsapp, No watching movies or series - No internet usage between 7pm and 10pm - Schedule my day thoroughly - No Sugar intake - Meditate first thing when I wake and last thing before going to bed - Review my values, write down and internalize my goals every morning - Read a personal development book in one week i.e. The Motivation Manifesto - Cold shower- spend a minimum of 5 mins under a cold shower per day - Thorough daily Bible Study and meditation Easy doesn't cut it for me anymore. I am living way below my potential. Time to have a mindset change.