I wish existence wasn't pointless

What’s got your panties in a bunch?

 

I clearly said quarter life crisis if you read my posts. I never said i’m a know it all and I was seeing if anyone could resonate with the way I feel through my words. What’s really pointless is getting mad over some online post from a stranger

 

That's your opinion--I just do what feels good. Still doesn't mean it isn't pointless in the grand scheme of things. Would any of your long term goals really matter if you got hit by a bus tomorrow? Sure they matter to you now, but ultimately they don't matter

 

I struggled with existential depression for years. I still do, but I've made significant changes in my thinking and it took years to figure it out. Maybe if I tell you what I did it may help?

First, I had to stop placing value on value. Value is not valuable. I started placing value on things that I wanted to be a part of my life, but couldn't find a good enough reason to. Fitness, nutrition, chores, personal hygiene, are all things I now place value on.

Second, I had to accept that life was pointless, but there's nothing wrong with this. Believing I needing some kind of purpose was overwhelming me and keeping me in a rut. Even if I had that purpose, would not that purpose be pointless too? Focusing on my destination was keeping me from living life. I needed to focus on the journey. If i wanted to get to the destination, I had to focus on the journey. Just improving on myself is enough to make me much happier, now.

Third, there is an optimistic side to this. It's not just the good things that are pointless, but the bad too. There's no reason to worry about silly things that don't matter, no reason to not take healthy risks.

You're already here, though, so you mine as well try to make the most of it. My purpose in life is to do better than I was yesterday and work on myself. Remember too, you have to learn how to walk before you can run. Take any massive goals and break them down into smaller ones.

Getting significant clean time from various addictions also helped these thoughts. I went a month without cigarettes and then caved and bought some. Even after one smoke, I went back to my old thinking. I relapsed on M last night, and I started to get depressed like this again, but I have enough clean time, that relapsing on M once, doesn't send me back too far.

Oh, and don't let dumb people keep you down. It is a REQUIREMENT to have a higher IQ to struggle with "edgelord shit." Let me know if you have other questions. Asking me may be worth the risk, even if the result is pointless.

 

Lol...you were obviously projecting when calling him stupid. All I did was act like you by calling you low IQ. To be fair though, I wasn't hurting your feelings by insulting you, I was denting your massive ego by trying to be honest. Get over yourself. Existential depression is a mental illness. You act like we chose to start thinking this way. Why are you getting so butt hurt? Because edgelord shit reminds you how insecure you are about your intelligence? He's trying to ask for help for his illness and you're being an asshole. I have no pity for your fragile feelings. Just because you need to feel smarter than you actually are, so you can feel superior to others, doesn't mean I do to, you enlightened prick.

 

Thank you. What kind of 29 year old has an avatar like that anyway lol, but what do you recommend man? How do I get past this chit? Glad I'm not alone

 

Did you read my earlier post? His avatar is him getting triggered by other people on the internet lol