I have changed listening to Songs to listening to motivational videos. Thinking about future to living in Present. Thinking about problem to thinking about Solution. Fighting bad thoughts to focusing on good thought. Trying to move mountains to Achieving One goal at A time.
I already tried it and there was no account listed for me to cancel. I'm going to stay on the site though so it's ok. Thanks.
XIV. Tonight I had a series of cathastrophic, multiple NEs. I have the constant feel of leaking something in my shorts. I had very nasty dreams and woke up like 5 times. I'm very nervous, I feel I can't predict them. Somebody help me!
Focus on something good, something happy, something fun. Remember your Childhood days , those Innocent Times. Be A Child.
I'm on 13 days which is lucky number. I can't wait the birth number that I was born on 27th. Keep going all of you. We're doing fantastic now. Love all
Ok, I MOed. Wait a second before thinking I'm an idiot. A few days ago I started thinking about this: I absolutely HATE Porn, it's gross and it doesn't really attract me anymore. I don't think I actually ever enjoied a clean MO session, in my life. From the beginning, every time, porn was always there, somehow. Nearly every time I fapped, I fapped to porn, and if I didn't use porn, well, I imagined everything in my head. Today I felt like I wanted to try what MO feels like without porn. Everything is going well for me in this period, so I decided to give it a try. It happened in the shower. It was fantastic: I focused on myself, my feelings, my penis, I was free from the oppressive lie of porn and I could feel everything going on in my body. That is what masturbating for our ancestors felt like, I think. Then the orgasm came, and I was extremely disappointed. Nothing, I felt NOTHING. And when I exited the shower, I felt powerless and I've been inactive all day since that moment. As I said before, there is no easy getaway. The entire habit is wrong, let's face it. Masturbation pumps out energy from your body and transforms it into a stinky white liquid, that cannot be used for any puropose aparth from eating it (ok I'm sorry you girls out there ahahahahah), that's all it does. Porn trasforms it into a dangerous addiction, but Masturbation itself is NOT a natural thing, it's NOT good. So, what's the future for me? Here it is: STOP! This is the proof that masturbation is useless. Porn isn't a problem anymore. I know enough things now, to understand that the only true way of doing NoFap is to quit fap for good. My journey goes on, counter resetted.