Ok so I relapsed, like 2 weeks ago and I’ve been acting really stupid ever since it happened... but I’m hellbent on quitting, I’m so sick of this addiction... it’s been weighing me down for 13 years. Ever since I first discovered internet porn it’s been an on and off habit, mostly on... I hate it so much it makes me sick! Sometimes I wish I could just delete all my memory of porn and restart. I get so depressed when I’m on a binge, but yet I keep falling back in to temptation, even after I’ve had a taste of what it feels like to be free of porn. I still seem to go right back to watching it. I really do hate myself to a certain degree, I just want it to stop. Day 0
Day 4/21! - No urges - Need to clean my room tonight - Need to sleep early & wake up early - Be more diligent with my prayers