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Hello everyone. I need you'll to please help me to overcome this porn addiction forever.

I really thought of committing suicide as i lost everything in life. I just finished my bachelors in BBM with a 55%. Somehow while searching about suicidal i found this NoFap site. I really want to share with you guys.

Porn has destroyed my life. I am the only son for my parents. Parents are above 60s.
this started when i was in grade 7. From that day onwards i have been failing and getting low grades. My parents are being ashamed infront of everybody especially church members. Since i am the only i was given everything in life. My parents work so hard for me but i really dont think of that at all becoz of everything i have in life. I am shy, dont know how to talk to girls, shy to talk to girls, scared of everyone thinking what will they do to me. scared of girls even. Now i was planning for my future studies. But i cant get into a good college or university with this score 57%. not even a first class percentage i have. All this porn took it away. Every night i watch and fap. Only porn and movies everyday. and always eating outside food. Really tired of life. no motivation, no body fitness, no proper health , nothing at all. Just a loser for everyone in this world. people always pick on me. So much of groupism in church. I have been ashamed as my church mate he got 96% in his bachelors. and the pastor announces it everytime in church. Everyone in the church knows that i am lazy. Nobody talk to me in church or otherwise. If anyone has something they need then only they call. I stay alone away from my parents. My parents are abroad. Nobody even calls me. all alone at home. No idea about life. you guys might not know my feeling while i am typing this. I am really depressed. My mom just called me. She was tired of being ashamed. she is a teacher in a school. Everytime when other people's children get good grades and have an aim in life, She cant bear it inside of her. she is 61. dad is 63. No idea what to do. this porn is a really sick thing i have encountered till today. Its killing me people. Can someone please help me out. I know that everyone has got problems too. But can someone please help me out. I am out options. I dont feel like living. I really feel to die but worried about how my parents will live if i die. I am the only son and all their hope is on me. they dont know about my addiction. Whenever i see them, their condition, their hard work and their sacrifice i regret for all i have done in life.
Please help me or else committing suicide is the only option left. I hope someone understands