Why did you decide to give up

when my penis became blistered and raw from being a masturbation addict.

 

yah, if i would have continued i would likely have lost all sensitivity in it, its still kinda raw, but its way better than back than.

 

My social anxiety became so severe that I could not make eye contact with anyone

 

Being a young kid and instead of living life properly, I was wasting my life on masturbating to a screen. I really thought life lasts forever, even though any day I could've died. (Anyone in general). And imagine my last day might've been a day when I fucking masturbated to some unrealistic, irrelevant ugly shit. What's the point of that? Why am I not living my life and doing real things? Being with real girls my age, being social, being who I really am. Took a few years to really realize that, and then I stopped.

 

Thats a tough question, sometimes I thought about it after I finished a particularly bad session, sometimes with a bleeding dick, cigarettes, joints or empty alcohol bottles around me, on my screen some disgusting bullshit, I couldnt even look at after finishing. Sometimes I though about quiting, when I realized that yet another part of my life was going to shit because of it. Sometimes when I was lonely and I knew exactly that I always will be if I dont change.
I dont know at which point I became determined to actually fight this, I just know that I am glad that I finally found the strenght to start the fight.

 

It was draining all my energy and focus. Most of my friends from school are in college, travelling, working, dating, working out, living their lives, and I was in front of a screen with some really fucked up things on it, frustrated and full of self pity.

 

Logic, actually. I've realized after being desensitized to much of porn's joys, having countless broken relationships under my belt, and also being in between jobs (I freelance) so I can suffer through the emotional lows initially that this is honestly so perfect a time to quit that it would be so incredibly illogical to keep going.

All the emotional crap of understanding what caused it or what this says about my personality or upbringing never has helped me. Now I'm at a point where screw it I don't get how it got so bad but give me a program to get over it and i'll just do the damned thing

 

Hi littlekegger, did you have instances where the bottom of your penis felt a bit numb and wasn't as sensitive as other parts? How is it now?

 

When I saw semen getting out lol

 

I'd always wonder why I had a hard time getting hard, but I thought it was because I was homeschooled and just not around girls a lot. Then much later into the future, my dad told me just how unhealthy masturbation really was. I began my journey on quitting that very day.

I was also really shy back then and overcoming this has helped a lot.

 

For my God then my self, healthy and future...

 

Close friends and relatives getting engaged and later married one after the other in a short period of time led to realizing that I won't be able to have a healthy relationship with someone if I didn't give this up.

 

The stuff I was masturbating to got more and more extreme. It shocked me how fast that happened.
On top of that I was struggling with Social anxiety and depression.
One evening after I had been edging for the whole afternoon I felt very miserable and decided to quit.
I think I was lucky I had a moment of clarity that day.

 

I decided to quit because I realized that not only was the intensity of the stuff I was watching getting more and more extreme (it especially scared me when I started watching non-consensual stuff), but it was starting to affect my thinking. I started viewing women very objectively and found myself viewing them less as human beings. I also realized pornography had become inseparably linked with sexual satisfaction for me- every time I've ever orgasmed or masturbated in my life (I've never had sex) It's been either watching or fantasizing about porn. Simply put, this just isn't who I want to be.

 

Because feels bad to have your sexuality fucked up at the age of 30.

Im still on time i guess?

 

Just the fact that it's immoral.

 

My source of lust (Ex-girlfriend) left me. Pornography is fake and for losers who are not aware of reality. It was logical to not consume pornography.