I was introduced to pornography and mastrubation at the age of about 13 when I was in boarding school for 2 years. It has been a problem for me ever since which is about 22 years now. I have tried to stop several times and have been successful for a few months at a time but it has been difficult to let go of it completely. through self reflection I know that: - I was feeling quite rejected at the time having been sent to boarding school while my brother got to stay at home. This was a way to feel good. - Times when I was struggling to sleep this would help me sleep. - Times I was feeling scared as a child this would help me get my mind off those things - Times when my energy was low I would be more tempted to do it, and it would further deplete my energy Now that I am a dad and my son is 16 months old, I want this habit gone from my life. I don't want to bring that kind of energy anywhere near my son. I also know it has had an impact on my work by reducing my energy levels and I am a spiritual aspirant/seeker of truth and it is a general hinderance in that regard. I have good feeling writing this, I think this is the end of that habit for me, I think with the support of this group I can definitely let go of this from my life forever
Thank you for sharing your story, @newdad984 . It takes courage to open up like that. It sounds like you have a good level of self-awareness, which will help you overcome your addiction. This community of NoFap is important, too. We need each other, to encourage and to build each other up. I wish you all the best on your journey to health. Feel free to message me anytime.
Hello newdad984, that's an awesome decision. Stay strong and fight against the urges. Also: If you feel like quitting remember why you started
Thanks for your example. I have a coaster on my desk that says “Every day is a second chance”. No matter how many times I fall, that’s still true. It is a symbol of hope for me. Progress has happened. Will happen. Love this new day!
