Hello everyone...First of all, I want to apologize cause I am not so good in writing and also for my bad english.. I’m very grateful because I had been this far.. mI have never been achieved even 10 days with PMO and even 5 days.. I’m not so happy cause the urges is always there everytime, espescially these few days. It had been a very rough time for me. I think that this week is the toughest time for me cause so many things had happened around me. Few days ago I have been ill and I cannot do anything except to lie on the bed with my phone.. The feeling to watch P is very strong but i did manage it by changing my phone with books, fortunately it works.. AND, yesterday I’ve caught my cousin watching P using my iPad. But he did not know that he had been caught.. I just look at the history and omg, it’s full with that stuff.. When I see all of those words about P, it really triggered me.. I still can’t forget about it today and all of those words keep coming to me no matter what I’m doing at the time.. It really disturb me all the time.. I don’t know how I can stop myself from thinking about it. The more I want to forget it, the stronger my urges have become.. I think this is one of my strongest cause of my urge this time and I admit that I almost relapse.. Please help me.. Thank you for reading and have a good day.. Wish all of you the best..
You'll be ok dont let the negative stuff control u. Its ok be in down mood for some time but remember u can change this by your actions. Good luck m8
Hi Kirst The reason why these thoughts invade your brain every day is because a part of you still wants to watch that shit. So because that part is still interested it tries to get your attention by showing you what it wants. I'm calling it "it" because it's a part of you that has it's own goals and it's own idea how life should be. You have to confront and understand that part. Find out why porn is so important to it. That can't be told to you by anybody else or read somewhere, you have to explore that yourself. Understand why that part still wants porn in your life. Once you gained understanding (which takes many days of contemplation) you can start to change it's view on porn. You have to make it understand, that porn is a bad deal. That it's not that awesome thing it thinks it is. It's sexual junk food, which eventually will give you the disease called erectile dysfunction, which can turn your life into a living nightmare. If you go through that process properly, "it" will get back on your side and see things the same way you do. It will stop bothering you every day. You will still have impulses to PMO, because there's a biological reality to addiction, but now you can just wave them away like they're nothing. You will also not need to worry about triggers anymore or be scared to relapse. Only when you're of one mind you can make a choice and stick with it and not doubt yourself every step of the way.
Hi ZenAf. Thank you so much for your reply, your advice and most important thanks for your support.. It's true that there are parts that really want to enjoy that thing.. Sometimes even with small things my urges will come and it will disturb me for a long period maybe sometimes for the whole day.. Although I always feel guilty, sad and angry to myself when I do that, the feeling just for a while, and it keep asking for that again and again.. Maybe I should spend much more time with myself and undestand it so that I can really control my feelings and throw away all of the negative thoughts that will not give any benefits but harming me.. I'll try it.. It is really a good advice.. I love it so much and thank you.. It will be one of my reminder during my reboot Again, I want to thank you and I really appreciate it.. Wish you all the best and have a nice day..
Tough times. Porn conditioned our brain in such a way that we unconsciously do things as we do before nofap. Day before yesterday, I typed some pornsite address and hit enter. I only noticed when nude pics started to load. I close the browser. Distract me from the thoughts It was an unconscious act. You have to stop everything that conditioned by PMO. There is no other way to break the addition
Thank you a lot for your reply, your advise and most importantly your support.. I had been through the same condition with you where I typed pornsite adress.. Sometimes it just happen spontaneously.. But, yes I know that our brain have the power to control it and stay away from all those things.. I will try to stop everything that conditioned by PMO slowly.. Again, thanks so much and I really appreciate it.. Wish you all the best and have a nice day..
Thank you so much.. I really appreciate your reply and also your supportness.. Yeahh, we’ll do this and success with it.. Again, thanks very much.. Wish you all he best and good luck in whatever you’re doing..
