New to the site, had a couple of reboots that lasted for a considerable time, but eventually relapsed each time with a rebound more addicting than the previous one. Fortunately I was in my late 20s when porn films became legal in movie theaters, so I wasn’t exposed to anything stronger than Playboy’s in my high school/college years. At least having to shamefully sneak into Adult Movie Houses in my 30s were restricted to maybe once or twice a month, with a hardcore mag to hold me over until next time. Development of the VHS player was like a gift from heaven (or hell, I should say) since then I could rent or buy my own porn to keep forever! Had dozens of VHS tapes stashed out of site in my garage. My wife traveled a lot for her work and I would binge for days while she was out of town. Until then, porn use was still not a daily event, and not to what I would call an addiction level. The came the Internet, and within a week I was a dead duck. For the last 20 something years or so, I was in a PMO loop almost 7 days a week from anywhere between 1-4 hours a day, losing sleep and enduring brain fog regularly. On the two occasions I quit porn for 90+ days, I felt great and enjoyed all the benefits I’ve read about in the posts on this site. This time I’m taking it very seriously, got rid of years of stash, and became a member of this group. I’m hoping that since I had a normal adolescence I can turn my brain backwards and rid myself of this scourge.
It's always good to hear from older generations since it sounds like you grew up in the 60's or 70's am i right? and back then things were a lot more different to how they are now. People talk about the 'swinging sixties' but attitudes have become far more liberal since that revolution. I'm probably half your age, i'm in my 30's but i know what it felt like to go from print media and VHS tapes to the internet, although i was only 15 or so at the time, I was at that age where there was a cross over point in history towards the internet becoming affordable and accessible. Things just got progressively worse from that point in terms of my porn addiction, time spent and content went beyond what would be and is considered 'normal' or healthy. It's been over 3 years since i viewed porn and I was in a very bad way with it so i know it can be done, although at those low points in my life it seemed like an insurmountable task. My advice is not to deal with this on your own, look outside for help, accountability, maybe tell your wife or find a men's group where you can share and be open?. I know with a porn addiction it thrives in secrecy and it's the shame that keeps us from reaching out or talking about it in a serious way. You will need to learn new coping strategies, things to occupy yourself and get to understand your emotions better ie: what leads you to act out? are there things you are trying to deal with mentally that are unresolved...and porn acts like a release or escape? there's a lot of consideration and angles to approach it from which is why it's helpful to have external support in addition to being able to talk about your successes and failures on this forum. Good luck in your pursuit.
Wellcome, Senior Tall Guy. That sounds like a really hard and difficult time. Try to implement good life benefits as well, like regular workouts and cold showers. Both of them help me a lot every day. But i see benefits of not watching porn everyday, even though my brain brings those scenes up as much as it can. i try to distract myself immediately when they pop up, i usually use youtube or go on this forum, that always takes my focus to something better. Try to have a plan when the urges come up, cold showers are really by far the best thing. My dick already build a cave inside my body and trust me, when you are in a fully cold shower, the only thoughts your brain can come up with, is how fucking cold the water is. And its good for your health as well. Keep us updated! Fight for your Life!
Thank you for the encouragement! This has to be the reboot that works... I’m in the back nine as far as age goes, and in good health. I want to get this monkey off my back once and for all. Damn the Internet and full speed ahead!
Thanks for the encouragement... this forum hopefully will carry me to success this time with help with guys like you. Will keep ya’ll updated (yes, I’m from the south— but tranplanted from north of the Mason-Dixon Line)
