In the middle of day 1 right now, I suppressed urges due to a group chat (which I then Muted), Feeling good, dont want to jinx it tho
End of day zero. Still feeling... that drained, inconsistent feeling. Like I’m trying to keep urging forward but I also keep relapsing so it’s a conflicting feeling of subtle weakness/inability. Begging god for insight and strength. Their is this amazing girl who I’ve been into, and I don’t know if I’m going about ANYTHING the right way to be honest.. I know that a good first step is going through with this reboot, though, continuing to admit that I have a problem and working on it because that’s my INTEGRITY on the line, and not just my REPUTATION you know??
As it will be a while before I reach 15 days, I'm happy to see you have done it. Don't quit. You are probably feeling urges at a constant rate, but try to keep your mind busy. Listen to some good music, keep up with your daily tasks. I've noticed the days I slack off of my daily tasks, sometimes because of a previous night relapse, I end up relapsing again. These past three days, I've kept up with my schedule; and, even though it seems to be getting boring (as all things do), simply doing them has really helped me get through these 3 days again. 20 days is just around the corner, friend! Keep it up
Well I'm gonna start over to day zero now, I was on day 6 but I used m, I didnt use any p though which is good. I feel pretty damn angry but I dont want to let it get to me, I told myself this year that I'm going to be more compassionate towards myself while I try to beat this addiction. So here we go day 0/7 here.
3/7, I am just afraid that I am only holding on because I really have work to do and once I finished it I will get urges again...
