NoFap hard mode

So, I took the nofap challenge even before I got to know about nofap...lol....I knew masturbating was ruining my life so my new year resolution was not to masturbate ever again. But I still used to watch porn regularly though. That obviously leads to edging.
Then on 15 Jan 2015 I discovered no pmo and realized how porn is ruining my life. I use to consider porn harmless. Then I also quit viewing porn.
Now its 23 days since I last faped and 8 days since I watched porn. And I started feeling great results.
I have more energy now, concentration is better now and there is no brain fog. Confidence is better than before. I am in a flatline stage now but it doesn't bother me. I can deal with infinite time of flatline. I have no gf and not looking forward to having sex. I have no 90days or 180 days goal. Curing Porn induced ED and other sex related problems are not my concern as of now.
I just want to cure my body and mind which is severly damaged by pmo.

I also want to share a incident which happened yesterday in class. I solved a problem before everyone. Then I asked a doubt to the teacher. I guess my voice is now deeper. A girl sitting next to me turned her head and checked me ...lol...I noticed her checking me once again later.

My skin is better and beard is growing faster.
Thanks for reading guys. I hope I will not relapse and post soon.

 

Thanks for ur support @tomtom

I have taken this challenge for indefinite period. I am planning to abstain from any kind of ejaculation, voluntary or involuntary, till marriage. My wife is the only person who deserve my love and compassion. Not a pixelated image of pornstar. Not a fantasy of some random girl, model or actress.

Eventually I am planning to live an ejaculation free life for minimum 4-5 years. Therefore I have taken challenge of 1501 days...roughly 4 years.

It may seem impossible but it is not. I do not believe in 90days or 180 days.I think that won't work.
Reason - I started masturbating at the age of 11. I started watching porn at the age of 14. Now I am 20 years old. I have developed weird fetishes. Sight of naked girl do not excite me now. I used to watch porn daily for hours and masturbate 2-3 times a day. I was doing all this for so many days. So how can 90 days of abstinence cure this problem? Think about it! 9 years of jerking daily and 6 years of porn daily. And u want the cure to be of just 3 months.

Therefore I took challenge of 1501 days. I am currently in flatline. And seeing little improvement . but I am not worried. I have long journey ahead.

Thanks for reading. And sorry for my poor English.

 

Thank u brothers for showing support.
Ur replies encouraged me to write more.

I am 20 years old and started masturbating at the age of 11 and watching porn at 14. I use to pmo daily. Sometimes 2-3 times a day. Earlier, I use to like softcore porn. Photoshoot of nude models, kissing etc. But eventually I started enjoying hardcore stuff. Then I started developing weird fetishes.

I am now at a point that I can't get hard seeing a naked girl in front of me. And i will be not surprised if I have PIED

Therefore I took NoFap no pmo challenge on hard mode.
I am 20 years old, virgin yet and planning to abstain from masturbation and watching porn, till marriage. Because I want to save myself for my wife. I believe that my wife is the only women who deserve my love and compassion instead of pixelated image of any pornstar.

Today, I added nofap counter and set the challenge to 1501 days which is roughly 4 years. Hopefully I will achieve this.

This challenge might appear too extreme. I mean 4 years is very long time and seems like impossible. 90 days or 180 days challenge appear more realistic. But I believe that abstaining for such short period will not work. Think about it...u practiced this habit for years but want this to be cured in few days. I think such a short period will not cure this problem. It took so many years to rewire my mind, therefore few years of abstinence is needed for reboot. That's my point of view and I may be wrong.

Currently I am flatlining and seeing no signs of getting my libido in near future. But I am not concerned about that.

Sorry for my poor English.
Please share ur views

Your brother.

 

So I reached 35 days. That's a small step in my long journey. I am happy I reached this far without a single thought of fapping. Although, I had urges to take a peek at porn a few times but I successfully overcome it.

I would like to thank creators of this site and all its members. I read success stories here which gives me motivativation.

I caught a mild cold and not feeling well. Hope I will get well soon.

I have started feeling many benefits which is good. I developed confidence which I was lacking earlier. I now look at people in their eyes, which was not possible before. Thoughts are clearer now ....brain fog is gone...calculation improved... concentration is better which is helpful while studying....
And the best of all...I am not depressed anymore...I use to over think .....even small things resulted in bad mood.....but now started giving less fuck...nothing worry me now....

Today, 2 incidents happened which are capable of making me depressed

1. A good female friend of mine ended friendship with me...our friendship was causing problems with my other friend...so she decided to end it.

2. After this, I called one of my friend and found out they were all enjoying together at one Friend's house....they did not invited me

These 2 incidents are capable of making me depressed....I lost a good friend and my friends do not bother to invite me. Earlier this would have resulted in me over thinking for hours. But not now....because now I am unaffected by these small problems....its a part of life

I also like to tell you that I am trying to do noArousal too....that is not looking at any provocative images....and I also try not to gaze at girls when I go outside...but its very hard ....when in class, I happened to look at any girl, I immediately look away...staring is a trigger....but my eyes involuntarily go back in the direction where that girl is sitting..... I have been staring girls for years and fantasizing them like pornstars....its hard to give up this habit...I hope someday I will be able to look at girls with purity and will try to actually talk to them and make some good friends....

Thanks for reading

Your brother
Banna