Back to the start:-/ I had a serious fight with my girlfriend and then late night I clicked at porn sites so one thoth lead to another. I need to control my emotions. Anyway not giving up, gonna do this thing. Day 0 here
I relate to what you wrote here. I am not depressed, but I sometimes wake up in the mornings feeling something similar... unsettled, uneasy, not sure what to do next, and a bit perplexed over my life, thinking "Here I am again, but why am I here? Where am I going?" Once I start my day, it isn't too long and I've forgotten about it. That's not to discount what occurred (for either of us). Perhaps something in your depression is a strength... it might be your soul trying to tell you that you are not living in a way that brings you happiness. And when you start to live the way that brings happiness, the depression lifts. On the other hand, it might just be depression and nothing else.
Day 12 of 365. I think it is healthiest to acknowledge our weakness as well as our strength, and to accept the whole package. Otherwise we are fighting against reality, and reality always wins. That doesn't mean giving up on our goals and vision of who we are. It just means accepting all aspects of ourself, which is self-love.
Day 9. Today is my rest day and got a cold last night so only did Wim Hof and a hundred leg ups this morning, teas and anti-inflammatories seem to be doing the job so later on I think I'll just do some light jiu jitsu study on my own so this week I can fuck myself up as much as I can in the gyms of the towns I'll be traveling to. Will be MIA for a few days, kill it this week
Day 121 "We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment." – Jim Rohn
90+5 What is stoicism? 9stoic exercises to get you started. Number 2. TRAIN PERCEPTION TO AVOID GOOD AND BAD “Choose not to be harmed and you won’t feel harmed. Don’t feel harmed and you haven’t been.” -Marcus Aurelius The Stoics had an exercise called Turning the Obstacle Upside Down. What they meant to do was make it impossible to not practice the art of philosophy. Because if you can properly turn a problem upside down, every “bad” becomes a new source of good. Suppose for a second that you are trying to help someone and they respond by being surly or unwilling to cooperate. Instead of making your life more difficult, the exercise says, they’re actually directing you towards new virtues; for example, patience or understanding. Or, the death of someone close to you; a chance to show fortitude. Marcus Aurelius described it like this: “The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” It should sound familiar because it is the same thinking behind Obama’s “teachable moments.” Right before the election, Joe Klein asked Obama how he’d made his decision to respond to the Reverend Wright scandal. He said something like‘when the story broke I realized the best thing to do wasn’t damage control, it was to speak to Americans like adults.’ And what he ended up doing was turning a negative situation into the perfect platform for his landmark speech about race. The common refrain about entrepreneurs is that they take advantage of, even create, opportunities. To the Stoic, everything is opportunity. The Reverend Wright scandal, a frustrating case where your help goes unappreciated, the death of a loved one, none of those are “opportunities” in the normal sense of the word. In fact, they are the opposite. They are obstacles. What a Stoic does is turn every obstacle into an opportunity. There is no good or bad to the practicing Stoic. There is only perception. You control perception. You can choose to extrapolate past your first impression (‘X happened.’ –> ‘X happened and now my life is over.’). If you tie your first response to dispassion, you’ll find that everything is simply an opportunity. Note: This exercise served as the inspiration behind The Obstacle Is The Way.
Yesterday I was having frequent urges but again made it last few days have been quite hard for me but I'm trying to stay strong not thinking or seeing anything that may excite me always keeping the goal in mind Day 5
It's th it is one of the signs of an abstinent from an Addiction. Your heading toward the right path.
