Day 4 coming to a close another day kept busy. Started a new "thought". Tried to stay engaged every second. If ever I felt my mind drift I stopped and assessed. I thought about how my body felt, and what I was doing. Tried not to overthink and be in the moment. It went well, and shut down and thoughts that would have led to urges.
Cant honestly keep my counter and must call it a failure. I was on day 5 and doing well, and mindlessly searched the internet. What I saw would be considered porn, and I did not click away immediately. I even began to touch myself so that calls out P and M. I didnt O. Still to be honest and accountable I must call failure.
Hi guys, I am starting. Day 0 it is. I feel like my thoughts are strugling to get through thick fog. From once getting better in my life I jumped again into river of lies, imaginary pictures of fake plastic virtual reality. I have lost control over my eyes, which now are the tool to undress women. This have to stop. I am boarding NoFap train.
Day 2/7: Today I got rid of my Twitter and Reddit accounts. This is no longer just removing porn from my life, it's to save my marriage as well.
