Hey guys, I am 30 years old of Asian descent living in USA for over a decade. I masturbated for the first time at age 17 and I got hooked since the first time. I would masturbate maybe 5 times a day maybe even more in the early days. I tried to abstain and was successful for weeks at a time and one time I was successful for a month. Any further attempts of abstinence failed. I accepted that I was weak and I was harsh on myself of being weak. After some time I stopped being harsh and I accepted that this is who I was and it is okay. I stopped being sorry and apologetic for my actions. At age 28 I got married and for the first 6 months or so I didn't masturbate. I was happy and thought my addiction had disappeared. But then from time to time I would have the urges and I would masturbate from time to time. In about a year I was addicted again and here I am. I think its enough. - I have low energy - Low self-confidence - I feel I have less stamina to work longer I just dont feel right. In my heart I have always known this is wrong. I just have failed so many times that I lost confidence in my ability to win. BUT AFF IT. Thanks NoFap. Listen up people. I am starting today and I will abstain for 90 Days. I will report daily. ---- Here are some things that trigger me - When I am alone, I feel I have the opportunity to escape my emotions so I go watch porn and masturbate - When I am tired and exhausted I want to distract my mind and escape so I PM - If I see a girl on tv or whatever I get triggered. Now I need certain techniques to manage when the urges happen. Will look for that after I post. Wish me luck and prayers
Welcome. I love to see a new member to fight this addiction. and remember: "The secret of life is to fall seven times and get up eight times." Good luck!