Just another new boi cruising through

Hi! I’m new here! I’m 23, and I found out about NoFap about a year ago when I first started kicking it into high gear to quit pmo. I recognized it as a problem very early on in my addiction around high school, but was never motivated enough to make substantial progress in overcoming it, both because I didn’t realize just how much it affected me and because while I wanted to quit before pursuing a romantic relationship, I was much too shy to make any progress there, so that really didn’t help me.

What wrecked me, leading me here, was when I didn’t wait and kick the habit before getting into my first relationship. It turned out that she had been taken advantage of sexually in the past, and I knew I wasn’t equipped to be there for her when I couldn’t even keep away from pmo for more than a few days, and we ended up separating because we both knew we weren’t ready to date. That all hit me harder than anything.

So now, I’m doing everything I can to kick my pmo addiction, from changing my headspace and how I talk about sex, etc. to having internet filters and keeping my tech away from me as much as I can, but I just. Can’t. Quit! It’s gotten to the point where it’s made me so anxious that I have nervous tics when I try to sleep, as well as terrible insomnia, leaving me more time to be tempted.

My anxiety and depression have shot up like never before, and I just want to be over this. I’m kind of at the edge of my sanity these days, and I’m glad I’m not the only one struggling.