I can.

I discovered the NoFap community 15 months ago, but initially I didn't make a big deal out of it. But it made me reflect on some things about my life.

I'm now 18 years old, and now that I think about it, I haven't had a durable and meaningful relationship with a female for over 6 years. And by relationship I don't necessarily mean a sexual or romantic one. Coincidentally, that's the same time span in which I started practising masturbation.

During this time, I've kept being successful in my studies, I've been doing sports, I made many good friends, some amazing. I don't feel like a porn addict, but I think masturbation has made me groggier, less creative, and further augmented my shyness. Overall, I think it impacts my life in a negative manner.

But what worries me the most is that I can't seem to be able to quit. I've been trying for a month now, but I never went past 4 days without it. In the past I refrained from it for longer periods of time, but not voluntarily: I simply didn't feel the urge to masturbate. Since I don't drink, smoke or use drugs because the thing I hate the most in the world is not being in control of myself, this scares the hell out of me.

09/10/18. 16:00 PM.
I hope this is the last fap of my life.