Nearly 29 years old and need to literally stop busting my life away

Hello my fellow Fapstronauts

I am new to this awesome website but I discovered the NoFap lifestyle earlier this year. At one point I tried it, noting down the benefits I was getting every day. I only reached up to day 5 before relapsing and after 3-4 more attempts I gave up.

I got brainwashed by some moronic fitness youtubers who said its natural to Fap, it's in fact good for you, makes you a 'real man', helps you forget about women and focus on your goals, that the NoFap benefits are just placebo effects etc. Boy o Boy was I wrong to listen to those sell outs. Just like the Dr's who encourage the public to Fap and never advise their patients with positive healthy lifestyle changes just so they keep profiting from mediocre sick people.

I am going to give this a proper shot because PMO is literally making me a shell of the man I know I could be. I know their is a vibrant, courageous, hard-working, generous man inside me that wants to benefit himself and others around him, not for fame or materialistic reasons, but to feel accomplished, to know at the time of my death that I have not been a spunk shooting couch potato wasting his youth and entire life away, but rather contributed to himself, his family and the whole world if God permits.

I will be keeping account of my journey on this website no matter how many times I fail, if I fail. I have no intentions to fail even at first attempt starting right now. I am absolutely sick of this addiction. I have not had any bad habits my entire life, no smoking, drinking, clubbing or any other way of dopamine release EXCEPT PMO which i discovered at a very early age. Ever since I was at the tender age of 12 I realised that masturbation was blowing my self esteem away, making me weak minded, ruining my eyesight, making me feel extremely shy, removing my courage and confidence. I knew in my heart and mind that masturbation was the only reason that my life was becoming fruitless and living became so dull. Even though I am almost 29 (birthday next week on 24th of September) its never too late. I am sick of feeling depressed, not getting any where with the hard training I put in at gym, feeling lonely and depressed, financially struggling etc. Its time to be a REAL MAN. Quit this life draining abomination. I am no longer going to reduce it to a 'bad habit'. I'm going to call it an abomination, a curse, a downward spiral to loserville, a despicable act and anyone seen promoting this act should be locked up for life because I am 100% certain that if people gave up this abomination then suicide rates, divorce rates, poverty, rape, crime in general will plummet.

So lets become real human beings and work together and become the best versions of ourselves.

 

Thank you Frij my man. Thats great and I have already been inspired by this website so many ways. I have watched countless videos on NoFap which have inspired me but there is always something special about reading for inspiration. Thanks for the thread just reading the opening few paragraphs and a few points I have gained strength to give up this abomination. I can tell a lot of hard work and heart went into that thread.

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