I'm resetting the counter. First fail. Grrrrr. Was up to 26 days PMO free. Trigger - constantly looking at pictures of women in front of cars & motorbikes - no nudity, but it started something. It's not safe to feed the bear - eventually it's going to take my entire meal. Up I get, and onward I march. 0/14.
It's been over 24 hours since I last fapped and I was dealing with hella urges today and I won't lie, I was just looking at porn and I'm gonna look again for a little while after I finish writing this. But I didn't jack off today, so... I'm on a roll. I'ma keep going.
Alright so I just stopped looking at porn and I'm not gonna look up any more porn until September 28th when I plan to relapse
Congrats! You've completed this challenge!!! Proud of you "start...no, my mistake, you are progressing, not starting over." That's probably the best thing I've heard in such a long time. Actually, that hit me a lot and every time I think deeper about it I realize how important it is to hear this. You're right, I'm progressing not starting over. Thank you for the motivation! Day 1 down. 1/14. I'm not going to lie, today I procrastinated quite a bit. I'm still not getting the hang of things and spending too much time on YouTube. I have a day left to finish an assignment, but I know if I spend time wisely I can easily get it done. I used to complain that I did not have enough time, but then I realized most of my time goes towards procrastination. It always leaves my mind cloudy and very ashamed of myself. There's always that voice in the back of my head like, what are you doing? You can't be wasting time now! It's a new start semester for me, after a really bad semester last year. I don't have to let it happen again. I can leave my old habits, I can throw away my PMO addiction, and in turn I can become more productive. Right now I'm all over the place but that's okay. It's okay to take some time to formulate things. I can progress.
"Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not, it's not the end." remember that what you are doing here is one of the hardest challenge for human being, fighting our own instinct. So you can be proud of yourself. And about the study stuff, just try your best, do not focus on the result, focus on the time and effort you dedicate. Use timeboxing technique or anything you find useful. "No matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop". In my situation, when i was studying for my university entrance exams, to be honest, i did not study extremely hard like others( just harder than what i normally did), but in the end, i was so lucky and passed with flying colors! Not so sure but i usually got lucky when i got long Nofap streak. So, do what you have to do, and keep calm. Best wishes to you.
Relapsed 0/14 This time I will work hard on implementing my game plan , especially self development (I read books on the topic and also about father hood and Christianity). This pmo habit is so freaking annoying, let me explain how I relapsed. Woke up in the morning my roommate was not home, I planned to work on my school work , I started working and before I know it social media, afterwards porn, didn't want to fap, I left to pick up a game,, afterwards went to the gym, came back home my roommate not home yet, started working on my School work again , afterwards I decided to go to bed, then the urges came back and ended up faping, so freaking annoying . Am going for confession today and start again. Will write down new resolutions on how I can implement my game plan and avoid procrastinating . No matter how many times I fall I will never give up!!!!!!!
