Introducing myself

After lurking here for a while there and this and reading articles/posts, I finally signed up because I definitely need a support group and people to talk to. Writing down (or typing) my thoughts down has definitely helped me through some rough times but I decided I need to also start talking to people as well. Positive self-talk and self-pep talk can only get you so far, right? Lol.

I guess what finally triggered me to sign up is that it has been getting really bad for me (the common withdrawal symptoms that were mentioned here) and I feel scared/lonely. I have friends in real life who I have talked to about this but I only gave them the "superficial" version because I didn't want to scare them away by revealing too much. Also I didn't want to burden them. Anyone else feel the same way with their real-life support systems such as best friends?

I just feel myself already calming down by typing those words knowing they will be read by people who will understand because they are experiencing the same thing. I also am drinking hot tea and it really helps a lot.

I am on Day #19 of no PMO. It technically should have been Day #27 but I relapsed on Day #7. I don't know what happened that day but I just was compelled to do PMO and it didn't help at all afterwards. Ever since, I have been having highs and lows, peaks and valleys, in terms with symptoms. Anxiety attacks triggered by negative thoughts are the worst.

I don't want this introduction to get too long-winded, so I'll stop here and probably reply to whoever post here then begin posting in other groups that I feel I belong to.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for this forum! Nice *meeting* you all in advance!

 

Thanks! You are right... reaching out for help or someone to talk to is often the hardest thing to do and often the last thing you do, lol. I think we all want to try to go at it ourselves first to prove that we can do it without any external help... that we are strong. But sometimes we need to reach out!