Starting my recovery. Could use some encouragement.

I'm sexually sober now for 14 days. I know it doesn't seem long, but this is the longest I've ever been sober in awhile. I'm on the verge of possibly facing divorce because of relapses and lies. I'm newly married (only a few months) this has been an ongoing issue of trying to be rid of this and keeping strong, but failing and lying when I fail. I don't want her to leave me... This addiction has ruined my life and everyone in it... I'm praying that my partner gives me another chance. I have tools now (12 steps, support, sponsorship) , before I thought I could kick this addiction by myself. I was so naive and foolish. This is me being vulnerable and understanding that this addiction is not a joke and won't be gone so fast. Just asking for prayer, encouragment (or positive vibes) that I can overcome this most importantly for myself and for my family, and that my wife will give me another chance and time to deal with this the right way.