Today I masturbated after 22-23 days of edging. It was so pointless and hard that I think I need to stop it because of health issues. I was here (on NoFap) before but I guess I wasn't smart enough to abstain for masturbation. But maybe the fact that I'm still here is good enough to not discourage myself. I think the best way to win this is to make your way into a good relationship with someone. So, I'll try to abstain from PM and 'll keep it updated. Maybe this thread'll be interesting for somebody.
Yes. We maybe shouldn't wait too long before start dating. I feel differences after 2 months of abstaining. Maybe we start finding girls around that time... We also must remember that every day is day 0. Every day and we can easily fall back to PMO. I have done that many times. ... Like bikewrench tells us that we have to be careful and diciplined in whatever we do. (you find posts from him in reset/relapse section. A master in nofap if you didn't know)For my sake is it when I am not aware enough and not focusing enough, but let my mind wanders. Then it is dangerous.
Yeah, you're right I think. You know when I was on the NoFap streak last time (about a year ago) I got to the idea that girls can feel if you're on streak or not. Maybe I'm just crazy but I'm starting to think it could even be chemical. Like when I was on 0-10 days streak it was like "hello and goodbye" and up from to the 30th day it was like "hello there". Bikewrench, huh? I'll try to keep it in mind.
welcome back! im back on here too after an extended period of thinking i could manage a few here and there. recently found myslef going on a binge and well time to get back on the program!
You need to learn to not edge that's not really helping yourself on the nofap journey and is only increasing the likelihood of a relapse. I know it's hard but the more you resist over time it will get easier . Relapsing over and over is a dangerous routine to get stuck in get out of the cycle now and start living life to the full.
This is all because of my decision, I'm sure. I hardly remember times when I had urges like this day. Can't believe I rushed down to the Emergency Button at Day 1.
Well, it feels like I'm resting from all this. Despite the fact that I'm still struggling with the urges. I feel like if I won't fuck anyone else, it's gonna be me.
Stay strong and get out of the house if you need to, walk, around other people. Just something where you're not alone with idle time.
Trainings seem to help: if I'm tired it's easier to resist. Also work helps... But there's a BIG ISSUE: my... eh... friend girl that was in sexual relationships with me started to send me nudes. And the BIG problem is that I don't want to be with her, but I want them nudes. I would be very glad to hear a good advice. I'm far from her now, that's good but the nudes still exist.
Well, since I'm resetting my counter too often, my friend gave me an advice that it's going much better if you have a real objectified goal. So I'ma try to reach 7 days at least to see what happens. I'm also concerned about physical health, because I've read somewhere that abstaining from sexual release is unhealthy and it's harmful for pelvis blood circulation. If anyone would acknowledge or refute it, that would be nice.
You have done the best thing you can right now. Have the courage and the self confidence to continue your journey. Step by step you build success. Just don't linger too much in your failures, simply learn what you did wrong and keep moving up. Good luck!
Well, I made a little progress but I still feel like a bunch of garbage and here's why. I've made 2 week-long streaks without PMO. On the day 7 or 6 I was losing myself and Med. And for the first time it was alright. But then I've met a girl next door and we walked together a couple of times. And yesterday when it was her day off work, I planned to take her to the town. I woke up with such a pressure in my head that day that I couldn't think straight. So I Med to clear my head. It worked but I was so wasted that I wasn't able to get out of the house earlier than 6PM. And whatever she did that day she did without me. Today I Med with random "pictures" (last times I used my imagination) and I feel disgusted. Fuck me, right? Now I'm enjoying holidays alone.
Don't be the slave of your past, be the maker of your destiny. You failed, but tomorrow is a brand new day and another chance to make sth that will make your feel respect for yourself. Remember why you shouldn't relapse (going out with that girl, for example) and do whatever it takes to accomplish your goals. Goog luck!
