Hello All I am a 25 year old male, single, loves whiskey, and in school studying aircraft mechanics. My experience with porn officially started at the age of 16 during the last few weeks of my junior year. I used porn as a relief for all the pain and hurt I had experienced in my life. At the time I was overwhelmed with the rejection of my crush, after being told by several people that I wasn't good enough for her, the verbal abuse from my parents, and the memories of physical abuse my father inflicted on me. And while my life seemed to improve significantly from then, the habit still followed me for the years. I first read how porn effects your brain in late 2017 and have been trying to quit on my own since then and have failed. Ive recently had a success of 2 weeks of no PMO and even dated, only to be rejected which resulted in a relapse. I am here because I cant take it anymore and I need to try something new to quit. I want better relationships and to be able to fully enjoy and create a better life for myself and the ones I love, and porn does not fit in that picture. I look forward to using these forums and interacting with you all in a quest for a better life.
A good book that helped me understand this all: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...ruggling-with-porn-sexuality-intimacy.183758/ You mentioned abuse and rejection which is addressed in this book. Both I have had many childhood experiences with myself.
I am sorry to hear about the abuses you experienced. I wish you luck in your journey to undo that pain and have a great peaceful relationship with your future kids.