Sharing my particular kind of MO addiction Hello people, I want to share with you my particular kind of addiction which I developped possibly out of "practicality" (because of how simple it is to get aroused this way). I was living with it since I was 10 years old. I was denying that it exists and not seeing its harm: Instead of using porn as the primary way of dopamine highs, I was downloading all the (at least a little) sensual or erotic photos of my women friends and MO to them. I liked mostly the ones where the women were in underwear, seeing it as incredible. My fantasy is really powerful so I was creating my own worlds of fiction (conditionning my brain to be aroused by photos of real people - which would not be a problem if I would really be sleeping with them, and not only fantasizing about it as a way to stay in comfortable passivity and possibly depression of not having them in reality). This all could maybe sound normal if my fantasy was not so powerful. I started even to write stories about my friends, to get highs along with looking on the photos, be aroused and then fapping. Only during last months I came to see how stupidly pathological this is and I got rid of all those photos and stopped it. I even needed to deactive Facebook because of it (and currently I have only male friends there, on my new facebook. Radical but very needed.) MO addiction on photos of real women I saw in real life. I hope that this post may help some people to see how even photos can be detrimental to sex life. So stupid. I reject to 'fall in love' with fictional subjects. I appreciate any support or suggestions but I think that I have this one handled.
Kyle09999, hang in there and don't look back. it will be worth it. good move on what you are aware of the triggers and keeping them distanced. you can do it.
