Im a newbie please help!

Hi there, I am brand new to NoFap and have been reading through the threads the past week or so. My anxiety has got very high so i wouldd like to please ask those with experience to hear my story and feedback if you can.

I am 30 years old. Ive struggled with PMO ever since i hit puberty. I always had a fetish for women's feet even before porn which i thought nothing off. The internet got big and then i discovered i was not alone.

I got obsessed with femdom and feet. I then started coming across financial domination and cuckold fetish.

Its getting to a point where enough is enough, i found myself masturbating to scenes involving women and mens feet and the forced bi fetish. Things that would of horrified me when i was younger. Ive always only ever been attracted to women but my anxiety around being gay is getting really high.

I know my story is not very original but i just needed to connect to this forum and ask for some help for the newcomer. thanks

Im freaking out that even if i do manage to do the NoFap that one day i will get a girlfriend and all my suppressed fetish through years of porn addiction will ruin the relationship and that i might never be able to enjoy normal sex. please help

 

Thank you, I think I've always been quite comfortable with having a foot fetish. It doesn't bring me much Shane. Women are always painting there toes and wearing open toe shoes that make there feet look pretty. I think your right that I've fed it too much and porn has made me develop some wild fetishes. Plus the fact that I am an addict when it comes to porn and can never get enough and I end up watching things that bring me a lot of Shane and guilt and go against my real sense of self.

Porn is just completely unnatural. My goal is is to one day have a girlfriend. I think liking her feet is ok as it's just part of her body. But I also feel that you are right in that I need to stop feeding it for a while.

Just a last question if I manage to abstain from PMO and do this reboot thing. Will the Shane and guilt from all the degreasing femdom things I've seen ever go away?

 

I have had girlfriends in past before just to clarify. My addictions to porn and other things have always tarnished the relationships. I've managed to abstain from cocaine and all other drugs for a year now. But I feel my journey of recovery will never be complete untill I address this issue. It just feels a lot more complicated than drugs as sex is a natural part of my body and paych like wanting to eat food. Where as with drugs all I have to do is never ever take any and the craving won't come back. i

 

I think I've got to a point where I have no choice. I'm just so afraid and I do t know why.