I've relapsed about two weeks ago. It's been my fifth or sixth time since I've started my strugle to get rid of this stupid addiction! Everytime I masturbate and orgasm, I feel like complete shit. So the mechanism I've come up with is I masturbate, I keep edging and I never orgasm. Result: the urge gets amplified, I get almost desperate and I can't think of anything else! Despite all that, I'm gonna keep trying. Life goes on and I have to keep fighting. Started the counter all over.
Edging is worst thing you can do because now you are getting that high multiple times instead of getting it once. Secret is to just observe the urges and just see them going away. Don't touch your dick for 90 days if you are serious about your recovery.
I was solid until the middle of the second month... One day all the right conditions appeared and screwed me over. And fucking reddit... Gone wild always gets me. I wish I could go back in time and not know about its existence.
Bro i will share one tip with you that i am using nowadays. Don't aim 90 days or 150 days right now. Just go moment by moment, watch your thoughts and be mindful of your urges. In the mindful state we tend to take good and ethical decisions.
The worst of it all... I've been a long time meditator. It even throws me off meditation. But thanks, this is solid advice!
Bro if you know meditation then its the greatest weapon one can have in this journey. Its better if you get back to your meditation schedule ASAP i have been meditating for 5 years and meditation helped me an year streak earlier
That's what I'm doing. I've long been a Shambhala Meditation practitioner, so I have a large toolbox... I've started again and I'm looking at it one week at a time. Next monday, luckily, I'll be able to say that I've restabilished my meditation schedule.