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I know exactly how you feel. I've been addicted to porn since I was about 10 years old. I was always in control too until the past few years. I've been going to strip clubs routinely and to other places to get my release. Just last week I went to a place and got back home and cried for several hours. I was ashamed of what I had done and ashamed of how I went behind my wife's back. It was at that moment I decided enough was enough and I started my journey to recovery. Tomorrow will be 7 days for me, but so far this website and a few others have really helped me learn why porn is bad for me. For the longest time I didn't think living without watching porn was possible, but this website has given me hope. I think it will give you hope too if you allow it.

 

This is the first day in your 'real' journey. One of the things that helped me at first is making sure that everyday I wrote a little something on this site to keep myself accountable.

Regular, daily journal-keeping is an important tool. Use it often, and good luck!

 

If it is necessary to think that you have it all under control, porn, etc., it usually means that you have actually lost control, for some time often. Don't fool yourself. Most addicts have two sides, they are masters in self-deception and they can be cutting honest alternately. Be gentle for yourself and tough on your addiction.

If you are serious, this is the place to be gentle to yourself and actually tough on your addiction. It is going to hurt. Write it here if it hurts, when you feel in hell, it is helping me. But equally write it when you feel better, when you're leaving hell after a few weeks. It will help others.

Come here when you're desperate, there are always people listening who know what you're going through.
Hang on,
Mark.