Only 90 days ... daily update

Hey guys,

First of all, sorry for the, sometimes, bad English..

April 21, 2018. That is the date today. The day when everything has to change. I'm 23 years old.
I've tried to reach NoFap for 90 days. Without success. In May last year I noticed for the first time that I had trouble getting an erection during real sex. I was very ashamed of that. When I was alone and watched porn, I did get an erection. Besides that, I'm feeling sad, alone and i don't have any energy. I'm lazy as sh*t...

I thought it had to do with the addiction to porn. I think this is still the case. I got a girlfriend last September, with whom I could not have sex in the beginning. Because I was aware of the fact that I was only excited about porn, there is also a form of fear of failure. These two factors are an absolute bonerkiller. In the end I was fortunately able to have sex, but that had to be in combination with extreme fantasies in my head about porn.

I've always been a confident and extremely social boy, but lately I notice that I'm really in a slump. I feel useless, I am very lazy and sometimes even feel depressed. Now my relationship has ended. It is now time for change. Time for an even more social life, attraction to women, soft skin, self-assurance and above all: normal sex. I've decided to use my single life for this reboot.

I started the challenge four days ago. No PMO for 90 days. After four days, today, I have fallen back. I jerked off today while I watched porn. I'm done with it now, because I just notice the difference now. I sincerely felt better again after four days without porn.

I only noticed that I can not do this alone. I want to tell this story to someone. So I will give you an update every week. The goal is clear to me: to become a real nice man who has no problems with sex.

I hope you will find my 90 days interesting and I look forward to your stories!

First days...

Day 3 today and there has not been a moment that I thought about relapse. I dreamed about sex the first night and woke up with an erection this morning, but I have not fallen back yet . Today (day 4) it is very difficult for me because I'm thinking about porn. But i need to stay strong.

What do I notice so far?
Not that much yet. Only that I am a lot more productive and, because I know things will get better, more confident. I really notice that already. I feel that I am finally busy with my life or something and that makes me happy.

What also helps for me... drink a lot of water. I feel even better after drinking 3 days only water (and one cup of coffee in the morning )

Week 1

The first week is over. I feel much better. But, that is also because I suddenly go to the gym much more, take cold showers and only drink water. It is more because I am aware of life, than that this is really a positive consequence of nofap. I am conscious about life because of nofap. I think it is wise not to count the days. It does not matter how long you spend on it. This is your new lifestyle. Things will automatically become better. I hope! As long as I do not pay so much attention to it, it feels much easier for me. How are you guys?

Week 2

Week 3

Week 4

Week 5

Week 6

Week 7

Week 8

Week 9

Week 10

Week 11

Week 12

After week 12...

 

Hi @K-Arctic

Thanks for your advice! I certainly understand what you mean. But I am really going to try and achieve ninety days without a stop. I hope it will be succesfull.

I think it is important not to think too much about it. I think that can only work against you. Therefore I stopped tracking every hour.

All te best!