Alright i’ll start This Post off by saying That I’m not from a English speaking country so my English isn’t the best. Anyways I’m a 17 years old boy who has been struggling with hocd now for a while, it all started with that I was getting tired off normal porn so I went from normal porn to incest porn and cheating porn, and when I had watched that for a while I wasn’t getting aroused by it anymore so I started to worry that I might be gay, so I watched some gay porn to see if would get aroused, at first I got disgusted and felt shameful, but for some reason I got hard too, naturally I looked it up and found out about nofap and hocd and I quit porn and haven’t watched it for around 2 weeks, but still, these thoughts aren’t going away I still have them and they bother me a lot. Like today for an example I was having sex with my girlfriend and suddenly these thoughts came back to me and I immediately lost my erection. And I felt like shit and my hocd felt worse than ever. i’ve always had crushes on girls and I have always wanted girlfriends, I have nothing against homosexual people but it just doesn’t feel like me. Does anyone have any tips that could help me? Wther I should go hard mode or normal mode or if I should try some CBT, Please help.
You're definitely not gay! Normal mode reboot will help you. I was addicted to gay porn for 20 years. 8 months PM free I no longer fantasize about men. Just give up porn and you'll be fine.
I'm very happy! It's seems surreal when I think about how different my life is now. I had never heard about HOCD. I thought I was gay or bisexual for most of my life. Nofap has helped me find my true self. I go into more detail in my post: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/145-days-heres-my-story.147453/
You just need longer time to recover. Longer i mean very very long Even after 1 year not doing PMO your brain is not fully recovered. Best advice is to stop watching porn and never go back to it. Enjoy life and enjoy real sex with your lover don't waste time watching pixels....
Hello, same story as mine. Don't make same mistake as i did. Please don't watch gay porn to reassure yourself that you aren't gay. That's not the proper way to understand what are you going trough. I have lost many years of my life because this shit. Stay strong
I didn't...I continued with porn and that was my mistake. After some years things had just get worse and worse. So I have fucked up my brain. I hadn't have sex for years, because I was all time in that scary mode "What if I'm gay". Now I'm on my 12 day without PMO and things are going better. I still have hope that someday I will be ready for sex with girl. I have erection but I can stay hard during sex..
I agree with all the advice you have received above^. I am just interested to know something:- when you went to incest porn did you feel "disgusted" and "shameful" like you did with gay porn? You didn't mention it, so I wondered if the escalation from 'normal' porn affected you in the same way. IGY.
"HOCD, also known as Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is a form of OCD that a person has when they have a fear of unwanted thoughts that they might somehow be attracted to the same sex. People who have these thoughts often feel they are losing control or feel they are having paranoia of some sort." https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/book/export/html/378
Yes it felt wired and I worried that I would jack off to a family member, but luckily this never happend, I remembered thinking that it had gone too far at that point but I didn’t quit.
