30 Days (T -5)

In 5 hours I will have hit my 30 day mark. Posting now because I wont be home and I am 99.9% certain I wont be rubbing one out in my car or in a public place within that time frame.

I had an extremely difficult time getting the NoFap started. Everyone would post about how the first few days were a breeze, and it made me want to scratch my eyes out. Gettng the ball rolling was in immensely challenging event for me. I had become very use to PMO being a part of my daily routine and as an outlet for stress, anxiety, and a coping method when I just simply didnt feel the way I liked.

Now for the good part, will start with cons and then go to pro's.

Con's:

The flatline. The mother...fuckin...flatline. After about 4 days my dick went on strike. From then on my cock remained in a handicap parking spot for almost the entire duration of my NoFap. I found this extremely disconcerting for several reasons. 1. Not only did I flatline, but there was shrinkage.

There would be no response to anything, and I mean anything at all. I had ended up on a couple situations where that motherfucker should have jumped up and done a waltz, but what I got was...nothing. This was very hard for me (there was a pun in there me thinks).

2. My intention was NOT to give up real world sex along with PMO. On the contrary. A highly motivating factor behind my NoFap was to improve my real world sex life so the flatline was very discouraging. On the other hand, the flatline also helped in successfully geting through a portion of that 30 days because my sex drive was practically non-existent.

In the end (and this may not be the correct path for everyone) I used the blue pill to get through 2 sexual encounters. After the 2 sessions with a little help my cock came off strike and is rockin and rolling like a 1980's hair band.

Pro's (No exxagerations here, I also quit drinking approximately the same time after years of excess. This could be a contributing factor as well):

- Energy levels are extremely high

- Interest levels are high. I am chewing through books (and just in spare time mind you) like crazy. I am digging into every topic I find available it seems. I have always had the level of interest, but it seems insatiable now.

- Issues of PIED or ED (whichever) are dissipating. Occasionally lose my hard-on during sex, but with a little redirection back into foreplay hes back in the fight like a good little trooper (dont take "little" trooper too literally =P).

- Reinvested interest in exercise/physical fitness

- Significantly improved confidence levels.

- My complexion appears to have improved. I have never had bad complexion before but I seem to have a bit of a glow now, and this has been mentioned by other people as well.

- There is an additional added level of intimacy during sex that I either had not noticed before or just failed to see because I was so concerned about getting off before I lost my hard-on. I am not the only one that noticed this. One female friend mentioned it to me as well after sex, stating that was not "usual" from her experience either. Take that shit how you will, just mentioning because it's smething that seemed to change after the NoFap.

- *Not an exageration* I have begun getting alot, and I mean alot more attention from the opposite sex in all manner of environments. Supermarket, public library, etc. This is very unusual for me. My personal hypothesis on this is that its not coming from any miracle or superpower but from how I am carrying myself now. I am not a bad looking guy, I can say that and know I am not being cocky, however, I am not your typical GQ cover model either. So how woman look at me could go 50% either way, the only factor I can attribute to the change is how I compose myself that would change their perception of me.

I know I am missing some. Some of the benefits are more subtle than others and are more easily overlooked, but this is a good glimpse of how the NoFap is benefitting me.

If your having a rough time, trust me the benefits are there. They will start slow and build momentum like a snowball effect.

The site and support of the people on the site. The success stories. Meditation, focusing on investigation in topics regarding what causes me to want to use PMO as a manner of escape and commitment to changing not only my behavior but myself are what have gotten me through the first 30 and I know will be the driving force in the days to come.

Thanks again all.

 

I am gonna say the flatline lasted about 2 and a half weeks. I am convinced I would still be in it if it werent for the real world sex.

After I began having sexual experiences again it came back to life, however, I did cheat and use the blue pill the first couple times just to avoid any awkward moments. After two rigged sessions I could tell my body was responding a little more normal to things and went in for a natural experience and all went well.

-- Additionally, on woman seemingly perceiving me differently. I was thinking about this. When I was Fapping, it made me feel kind of "slimey". Also, looking at pornographic images as often as I was makes you look at the opposite sex in sort of a "slimey" way. At least I think it did for me.

I am not rebooted, and I still look at woman in a lustful way. Its sure as shit gonna take me more than 30 days to fix that, but I dont think I look at them in a "slimey" way anymore. If I make eye contact I may look a bit flirtatious and possibly a little lustful...but I'm also not instantaneously seeing her in 4 different positions and in a threeway with the friend that she's standing next to before she's had a chance to blink either.