Day Se7en. Having some urges, but not really strong ones. PMO had become a habit and I'm probably feeling that I'm missing something. Yeah, missing out on life!!
I fucking broke, so back to square one. 0/14 FUCK. It's so frustrating. I was starting to see the benefits. More energy, improved focus, improved clarity, more mindful, more confidence, optimism. Then I broke and watched porn. Now I lost my focus and energy. My dick is sore and probably can't even get hard if I want it to. I feel like all of that progress is wiped away. I feel so shameful. Like I fucked up the rest of the day and now I have to climb back out of the hole. I know that's detrimental thinking. You should just move on because what's in the past is in the past. Just move forward and be grateful that you're embarking on this challenge and that you're being mindful of it. I should be happy with myself that I'm taking this step. But it's tough. Literally right after I came I screamed in frustration. I was a master of my mind and all of that was wiped away in an hour. No, I can't let it be wiped away. I have to get back to where I was. I can do this. I will do this. I'm stronger than porn. I'm stronger than my monkey mind. I'm stronger than my cravings, than my addictions.
6/14 - I got depressed, everything seem boring to me. I need to pass the upcoming weekend successfully.
Day 2 feel anxiety, but keep fighting my mind however I remind my goal I am Ready Day 3 now good luck all