This is really tough to do alone

I've been on this journey for just under 3 years now and man my ego has seriously hindered my ability to fight this. I will admit, I've made tremendous progress but it's the last hump that I can't get over. My longest was 50 days, then I thought "I proved it to myself, I can obviously do this." then came up with excuses as to why I can relapse and those same excuses are what I use to continue to relapse.

I've gotten over some of the sense of entitlement and a lot of the procrastination that I used to have but I haven't completely eliminated it. I know exactly how great it feels when you're on a nice streak and social and attentive and present and awake. I just need help getting back there when I used to think I can do it alone. I'm going to be using this as my journal any time I have thoughts or urges.

Feel free to reach out if you want to as well. We're much stronger together and I'm open to accountability partners etc.

 

Sounds good, I definitely have to keep a journal, I'll find that in the Forums. I'm already on a 30 day challenge, then I'll complete the 60 day challenge for 90 complete days. I appreciate the advice

 

Thank you, yeah I'm definitely in for an accountability partner. I feel like it makes thing so much easier because not being able to talk to anyone has just made me isolate myself more and more. Trying to break out of that. I have whatsapp and kik, let me know which is better for you

 

Sounds good, I'm on Pacific Time as well. Thank you for your help.