No porn no masturbation. It has been a battle in myself, ultimately I won. What I have noticed is a shift in my attitude towards life in general. My eyes have cleared up, even when I am tired, I don't have that unconscious dead eyes, they almost vibrate with life now. I feel more motivated to improving my psycics, Which I do. More appreciation for the little things. It is a feeling which I have rediscovered within myself, I remember having sports in school looking forward to it, talking with friends, looking at girls, striving to be the best at running.
Congratulations of 70 clean days. Tonight woke my mind up a bit, of the possibilities that exist that one can improve their personal life, just by cleaning up their daily behaviors. I cant ever imagine going more than 7 days without masterbation, yet I also know that I havent made a real effort to change. I was so enthused at the prospect of changing my life after I had read some of the positive signs people in recovery have had from a physical and mental health perspective to stopping the viewing of either porn or a fantasy mindset. I know I've had difficulty concentrating, I've found alot of little things constantly get on my nerves, I find I get frustrated so easily in life, and watching porn over and over and over cant help. Yet I have trouble getting over the mental barriers, all the sissy porn I watch and fantasize about. I know its a sickness, yet something that I turn to, to seek some sort of emotional relief.
