Day 47/365 I'm feeling that kind of I've got my nights and days all mixed up, it's not good, the correct sleep-rhythm is fundamental, so I have to fix it
Day 8/365 “We either make ourselves miserable or make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.” - Carlos Castenada
Relapsed again. Had a day where I was very depressed and anxious. When I got home I had no urges but slowly my whole mood changed. I went from feeling very down and anxious to having absolutely no feeling at all. I felt completely apathetic. My mindset also changed with this and I started saying things like, "Why the hell am I doing NoFap, it sucks, I can do whatever I want". I was also seeking some sort of stimulation since at the moment I was so numb. This evidently led to the relapse. It all feels like a waste now. I hate it when my mood rapidly changes and my whole mindset as well. It's almost like I become another person, someone who doesn't care about anything and thinks NoFap is stupid. I'm not sure how to prevent a relapse when one of these periods of a complete switch in state of mind and mood arises. All I can do right now is to jump back on the wagon and keep movin' forward. Goodnight. Day 0.
Okay... Another one down. Day 19 done Waking up in 3 & half hours... 1000+ KM trip ahead. Keep going everybody. Keep on going!
Day 14/365 some times i try to fool myself just search the word no harm but before rushing to searching i visit this forum and I rember why I choose this in the 1st place. Because u guys inspire me every time and i don't to getback.
Day 11- I found myself fantasizing a lot yesterday especially while looking at some women on the streets. Fantasy is very dangerous. I am glad though it did not escalate any further.