Could someone help me explain my state of mind?

It's addiction. Both probably fueled by the addictive quality of social media and the nature of pornography.

If deleting everything worked, we'd all be doing it.

Here's a few things I'd focus on:

1. Finding other things to fulfill you and occupy your time.
2. Getting in touch with why you want to make these changes and the benefits. Then re-visiting them often.
3. Spending time connecting with real people in real life.

I'd also suggest watching this too:

https://www.ted.com/talks/johann_hari_everything_you_think_you_know_about_addiction_is_wrong

 

its common for people, once they relapse, once they get a taste of what it is they believed to be 'missing', they will do it a few more times. Til they then come to the realisation again, they are getting no feeling out of it. This realisation becomes all the more obvious, all the more apparent the longer you abstain. Because by revisiting porn and masturbation, you are bringing back all those feelings and thoughts you were previously trying to escape or at least put your mind in a better position by completing NoFap. 7 months is quite an achievement, just make sure now you don't reverse those benefits, keep to what you've taught yourself and like HuffleKid said, it's important to remind yourself why you're doing this and what it is you're trying to change about yourself i guess.

I had that same experience when i relapsed before, i remember it being very senseless, in a literal sense. It seemed after so long, the pleasure i imagined it to feel like in my mind, before i relapsed was nothing like how it really felt. When i felt drained, empty and like i betrayed myself and all the time i spent trying to resist it. My mind just magnified the feeling, when in truth it wasn't how i imagined it to be at all. Orgasm via porn and masturbation alone, it really is a feeling i don't miss and i can gladly say that now, knowing the truth of how i felt before.

 

can relate
when i cum to porn, i dont feel anything, its now become one of my motivating reasons to get away from it, as i dont get any sensory pleasure - its all addiction related dopamine hits

you can do it